Friday, July 23, 2010

An unexpected break

I've been on an unexpected break. I wasn't planning it. Just sort of happened. The last post was such a milestone I just didn't know where to go from there. I realize there are lots of things still spinning around in my head, that I need to get back to and write down. I'm also realizing that life with a daddy gone 12 hours a day almost every day is HARD. Some days it's 14-15 hours. And when this mama has quiet she wants to sleep. There are still 'aftershocks' of an aneurysm (I like that term someone called them) that we deal with. Tiredness is one that will be there until at least next March, if not much, much longer. Yes, I need to nap every day. Some nights I fall into bed as SOON as husband gets home from work. I must or I might combust. There are still blood clots in my in my right eye that has been driving me nuts. It's not large by any means, but every time I move my eye it it's like a little ant marching back and forth all over the place. Annoying? I think so.
The other thing is parenting for that many hours straight with 3 little kids who need some structure and need their daddy is more difficult than I ever imagined. Naughtiness has reared it's ugly head simply because daddy isn't home, and they don't like it one bit. They can wear a mama down now by hour 12 quite quickly. It doesn't mean their behavior is acceptable by any means. Somedays I'm more of the mean cranky mom than I want to be.

My plan is to get back at this though. More pictures, more fun, more life from this crazy corner we call home.


Deanne said...

Having a Daddy who is gone lots is a tough place to be. Oh, how I know that. Adding in recovery just makes it that much harder. I only have jet lag and culture shock to deal with...and that goes away eventually. ;) We can pray for each other with complete understanding, can't we?

Hang in there!!

Mama H said...

Can't wait to see some updated pics of the kids!!!! Keep the stories coming!